Blue Wiggle, Anthony Field has opened up about his life-long struggle with depression.
Speaking with Ahn Do in an episode of Brush With Fame on Wednesday, the 53-year-old revealed he had been battling the disease since he was a teenager and had had previously felt suicidal.
“As the years rolled on I started feeling bad about myself,” he admitted as he reflected on his life to the comedian and artist.
“When you’re in that zone, you feel like you shouldn’t be on earth, basically. You’re a waste of time. You’re in a crowd with people and you feel like you’re the only person who feels like that. They don’t understand me, no one understands me, no one gets me,”
An increasingly emotional Anthony also confessed to being in such a dark place during his days in 80’s pub rock band The Cockroaches, that his dad had felt compelled to come on tour to watch over him.
“He was worried about me – I’d started gambling. That’s when he saw how I was and got me some help,” he said.
But even after finding fame with The Wiggles, Anthony’s depression neglected to cease.
“I’d be in the dressing rooms bloody bawling my eyes out by myself, after you’d just played to, you know, a couple of thousand people,” he said, admitting that the support of his bandmate Murry Cook (Red Wiggle) had helped him get through the trying time.
“Murray sort of understood what was going on probably better than most,” he said.
“He actually came up to me and went, ‘Mate, are you OK? This is sort of happening a lot. There must be something going on.’
This article originally appeared on New Idea
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